My husband can attest to this - I used to get teary eyed - full out crying at least 1 to 3 times a week. Used to. I've not had a moment of crying since I started taking my antidepressants. I've watched things that elicit a strong emotional feeling inside of me, but no crying. I've screwed up, hurt people's feelings, dealt with co-workers being dumbasses (raising my stress levels), missed out on doing things I've wanted to...things that would have provoked tears before.
I don't know. I hated crying over "nothing" before, but now I wish I could cry. I used to be able to fake it, eventually causing tears to fall. But nothing. It's freaking WEIRD!
But I don't feel lost, like I did when I first started taking the medication. I feel like I'm back to my normal self, full of imperfections and goals...but the lack of crying has me focused on why the heck am I not such a sappy person any more!?
Who else complains about not crying? I should feel great that I'm not such a sap, since I always got frustrated over the fact that I could cry almost on demand. *sigh* I don't know how I feel about it, really. One part of me is glad I'm not a freaking boober any more. The other part of me worries that I have lost a part of my personality, a part that made me more sensitive, because I can't seem to cry.
Just things to ponder. RAH!
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